I can't sleep. I have work in the morning, and I hate that I have to be up in 5 hours to get ready for work. Lately, it's been difficult to sleep. I can't remember the last time I've slept through the night without waking up at 2 am. Is this one of the many symptoms of getting old? Can you believe I'm about to hit 40? Holy shit...
I've been thinking a lot lately... and sometimes it takes a hold of me where it gets me down... wow I've had the longest pause after typing that. For the first time I don't know what to write... or where to begin.
I am changing.
My thoughts, feelings, and goals seem to be shifting in a way that might affect people in my life. There's some inner conflict that I'm dealing with that I am still trying to figure out. I better figure it out soon...
After going through a failed IVF, I just haven't been myself. A small part of me feels empty... Why is this so hard to express?
I'll leave it at that.
